Thank You Lord! I guess I am beginning to realize that the expectations I have for myself are unrealistic. As much as I’d love to spend 24 hours a day 7 days a week serving You, that’s just not possible in this world. As it is, I have to work; I have no choice about that. Work takes up time, and even if I do it your glory and with a heart focused on You, it still means having to take time to focus on earthly things. I can set aside days or half days for You, but at this point in my life, full time service/ministry just isn’t possible. Yesterday, I began to see that, and I felt more joy in the midst of my day than I have in a long time. Obviously, You could clear my schedule, or give me financial independence if that’s what You wanted or me, but instead You apparently want to teach me something in the midst of the daily grind. There a details that have to be handled, and there’s nothing spiritual about them. Work has to be done, but I can do “as to the Lord.” That means I do my best job, and serve people well. It does not mean I walk around irritated about the constant interruptions work brings. That is what I have been doing for some time now. Please forgive me.

Lord, I ask You to give me a real sensitivity to your Spirit, so I will know when to minister, and to whom I should minister to. I continue to lift my friends to you who don’t know you. You know my desire to see these friends come to know You! Help me shine for You, and point them to You. Forgive me for being so self-occupied. Help me to walk through life with sensitivity to your Spirit that will allow me to lead others to You. Amen

Sweet Child, hold fast to what you know. You know that you must abide in Me. You know that I work best in your weakness. You know that my desire is to bring the lost to Myself. You know that I will supply your needs according to my riches in glory. Be still and know that I am God. Do not let yourself be tempted to usurp my role by trying to control everything. A branch does not strive, yet you are striving. Learn to find contentment in any and every circumstance, and trust Me to work it together for your good. Hide in the shadow of my wing, and rejoice in Me, as I rejoice over you with singing. You are treasured, and I have infinite patience that you do not have. Take on my perspective, and your attitude will improve. Let your roots go deep in my love and my Word. As you do this, your life will be established on the Rock, which cannot be shaken. Little one, you are easily shaken, because you are running to and fro trying to control everything. Roots are not meant to run, but to stand firm. Delight in my law, meditate on it day and night, and you will be like that tree planted by the water (my living water). You will yield fruit in due season, your leaf will not wither, and whatever you do will prosper. This is what you desire, and I have told you how to achieve it.  Blessing will follow obedience, so be faithful to obey all that I have commanded you to do.